Post by teenybenoit on Jun 1, 2015 16:06:49 GMT -5
Oh ladies it was a horrible, long day back at work. With awkward bosses and awkward silences I just wanted to bury my head. I had 1900 emails!! I did however survive and I'm home now, feet up cause my hubby is awesome and told me to go relax for a bit. Something interesting has come out of this, I feel that I need to find something that makes me happy and my work place most definitely doesn't. I have a diploma in crisis counselling which is good for working in women's/youth shelters. This was not a job I pursued when I graduated mostly because it was hard to find full time work and you were some what limited to being an intake worker more then anything...I also was 19 years old at the time and didn't have the luxury of working part time. Anyway, I have decided to go back to school to get my diploma in psychotherapy & counselling so that I can expand my abilities in the field. I'm going to do this part time with a loose goal of being finished in 5 years. Maybe I can finally do something I love and enjoy! This has brought some peace to me today, I have been thinking about it for a while. I hope you guys had a good day!!
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Sorry it was a hard day. So Great that you're focusing on the positive and making personal goals for yourself though! That is a very healthy thing to do and a good reminder to others to try to do the same! I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
OMGosh 1900 emails?!! Sorry to hear your first day back to work was rough and filled with awkwardness, glad you were able to put your feet up once you got home. Sweet hubs! I hope your work day today will be / has been less terrible.
My experiences of these past months -first finally falling PG then loosing the baby- sure has put certain (important!) things into perspective for me again as well. I too realized I needed to look for something that made me happy, and that I had to work on achieving that. I thought my heart issues had already taught me that life lesson (together with enjoying and loving the good things my life has to offer me, and less stressing and fretting about unimportant stuff), but somehow the MC hit me much harder around the head than that. I myself was in my early 30s when I started university (finished my BA in 2012 and hope to finish my MSc this summer - finally ;-) health hurdles have caused some delay over the years meh) - and I think it's awesome that you decided to go back to school to get another degree!
Post by teenybenoit on Jun 2, 2015 21:18:24 GMT -5
muscari I feel sometimes like life decides we need a makeover and just turns our lives upside down so we are forced to think differently. I was married once before and it was a very sad and lonely existence but I was a loyal partner and stuck like glue even when it was painfully obvious that we were toxic to each other. I lost my marriage and then my job of 10 years all at the same time. I though wtf!!! What now? But somehow it all fell into place and I wouldn't change a thing except the multiple mc with my current husband, because I wanted those babies. I feel a similar lost feeling now, but not with my marriage this time which is beautiful!! I think though a change in direction is needed. It has brought me some peace.
teenybenoit, I am so sorry your first day back was hard, hopefully it will get a bit easier as time goes on. And less stressful when you get through all your emails!
I am so very happy to see you looking at a positive and making a goal for yourself. That is so awesome and sounds so exciting!!
I am the same as you with my first marriage. I look back now and wonder how I did 14 years! I now MC's suck, I really, really do, but at the end of the day I feel so very fortunate that I found MH and finally have a marriage that makes me so very happy.
Continue with the positive thinking and don't get discouraged when/if you have a bad day. I still have them and that's normal. *hugs*
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